Wednesday, March 21, 2012

...and then I remembered that he has cancer.

So things were going awesome today.  It's super beautiful outside, the warmest March on record in Michigan.  The sun is shining!  My students were a lot of fun today, and I thoroughly enjoyed teaching them about possessive adjectives.  I know, that doesn't sound like fun to most of you.

So as I say goodbye to them and prepare to leave school to go out and enjoy this beautiful weather...

I remembered that I have to meet my husband in Muskegon today.

Not to go shopping, which is my favorite Muskegon event.

Not to go out to dinner, which is my second favorite Muskegon event.

But to take him to his chemo infusion.

Because he has cancer.

And all of a sudden I just felt really deflated and tears instantly sprung to my eyes.  I'm losing my happy, peppy, energetic husband to another stinking week of lethargy, nausea, and malaise.

HOW MUCH LONGER, GOD?  WHEN WILL YOU DELIVER US FROM THIS?!

5 comments:

MamaTod said...

I pray that this week lost will mean many, many years of "happy, peppy, and energetic" Ryan. Sending love and hugs with those prayers.

Katie said...

Thanks for being honest and real- I am sorry for a hard week; may God keep giving you the grace and strength you need.

j.spears said...

Be gracious to me, O LORD, for my bones are troubled. My soul also is greatly troubled.
But you, O LORD-How long?

Turn, O LORD and deliver my life,
save me for the sake of your steadfast love. For in death there is no remembrance of you; in Sheol who will give you praise?

I am weary with my moaning; every night I flood my bed with tears; I drench my couch with my weeping. My eye wastes away because of grief; it grows weak because of all my foes.

Depart from me, all you workers of evil, for the LORD has heart the sound of my weeping. The LORD has heart my plea, the LORD accepts my prayer.
Psalm 6:2-9

I’ve read this several times over the past few days and as I read your words this seemed to echo. Man, I love the Psalms.

Jess said...

Seems like a perfect time to pass along... I am having mid-term meetings with each of my 75 Senior Seminar students. Many of whom are following your blog and praying for your family. I have gotten through about 17 meetings and about 4 of them have referenced Ryan's speech to chapel or your blog as they have responded to the 2 following prompts:
Depth:
How have you grown deeper this semester? What is an area, maybe a faith statement, maybe a content area - but where have you grown deeper?
Breadth:
How has your worldview expanded this semester. How have you broadened your thoughts and opinions?

Kendra and Ryan: Thanks for your honest witness and willingness to use the pain to impact the world for Jesus Christ.

Looking forward to seeing ya soon at Grace:)

Ryan said...

Thanks so much guys for all your words of encouragement! We're so blessed to have all of you in our lives! You really mean a lot to us!