Monday, March 4, 2013

My biggest prayer request for you ever!

It has been a very tough morning. I met with a couple of doctors this morning, mine and the gastroenterologist. Their consensus was things were a lot more serious. The bleeding seems to be come from one of the small newer tumors on the lobe of the liver. It is still probably "seeping" fluid.

The real problem is they HAVE to identify the source of the fluid. They think they know. They're talking with other Dr's about whether to do an angiogram to discover the source and then hopefully coagulate the tumor. The instrument has to get far enough up into the tumor in order to do that. 

THOSE THINGS HAVE TO HAPPEN, FIND THE BLOOD SOURCE, COAGULATE IT!

There are not strong odds for a successful procedure. 

Once the doctors decide to move forward, then there are still no guarantees. 

If they can stop the blood we're back in business. Work on getting my counts right and pursue treatment again. If they can't complete the procedure there are no more options. The blood will continue to leak into my body and after a while my organs will slowly start to shut down. 

This is the scary option. The Dr's said the don't honestly expect me to leave this hospital, and once the organs start to go it will be "sooner than later". 

Another slim but possible scenario is the tumor clots up on its own. This probably would've happened it it was going to but that's man's timing not God's. 

I won't lie and say I'm not scared. I was doing fine as I found out and was able to ask questions and keep it together. However once I started calling family members it became much more difficult. I felt like I was the one inflicting their pain. I know it wasn't me, but I felt like it was my fault.

I love God passionately and unashamedly. He is my all in all. My redeemer. This is still no more out of his hands than anything else I've faced so far. 

How can you help?

Kendra and Colton and my mom are headed down tonight to be together with us. Pray for safe travels. 

There are so many types of people grieving this right now, mother, father, wife, son, brothers, introverts, extroverts, .etc. Please pray we would have the Grace from God to deal with whatever news comes our way. That we would all lean on him in obedience and find our peace and joy and hope in him.

Pray for the Angiogram!!! That it would happen. That doctor's hands would be guided by Holy Angels to direct them. That they would find the source, get where they need to go, and stop the bleeding of this tumor!

Pray for Kendra and I as we may be living in two worlds more dramatically sooner than we expected. A foot in the strong possibility of fate, and a foot in the eternal and guaranteed promise of hope.

Pray for God's will to be done above all. Not my selfish will to be alive, but God's will regardless of how it affects me. He is Lord of Lord.

Please forward this blog to as many people as you can. The more people calling on God's name for His will to be done, the more please our Father will be. 

I and we are going to choose to glorify God no matter what happens. We have done that since April 1st, 2011. God is sovereign and we will live every moment purposefully trying to serve him. 

92 comments:

Anonymous said...

The Loverin family is praying...

Amy Richardson said...

Ryan and Kendra,

The staff of Redeemer Presbyterian Church in NYC (which is NOT small) is praying for you and will continue doing so.

I love you!

Amy

Anonymous said...

Please Lord Let your will be done.
Sophie Bailey

Ashley said...

Ryan,
I heard you share your testimony at the CCCA Nationals back in December. Funny, you crossed my mind just yesterday and I said a prayer for you and your family. I read this update almost in tears...will be praying for you all much more now!!
Ashley

Kristen Hamilton said...

Staff praying here at Day Camp Sunshine in NJ. Interceding before the throne of Jehovah Jireh brother.

Anonymous said...

Lifting you and Kendra and your amazing family in prayer...through our tears.....

12 Return to your fortress, you prisoners of hope;
even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you. Zechariah 9:12
New International Version (NIV)

Jaye

The Coming of Zion’s King
9b
See, your king comes to you,
righteous and victorious,
lowly and riding on a donkey,
on a colt, the foal of a donkey.
10b
He will proclaim peace to the nations.
His rule will extend from sea to sea
and from the River[b] to the ends of the earth.
11 As for you, because of the blood of my covenant with you,
I will free your prisoners from the waterless pit.
12 Return to your fortress, you prisoners of hope;
even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you.

The Lord Will Appear
14 Then the Lord will appear over them;
his arrow will flash like lightning.
The Sovereign Lord will sound the trumpet;
he will march in the storms of the south,
15a and the Lord Almighty will shield them.

16 The Lord their God will save his people on that day as a shepherd saves his flock.
They will sparkle in his land
like jewels in a crown.
17a How attractive and beautiful they will be!

Victor said...

Praying here in Hawaii, will add you to the prayer team, which is very powerful, at my church. www.hcwo.com

The Lockwoods said...

Barbara Lockwood and Family and friends are praying for all the things you have requested Ryan. And we know He will never leave you nor forsake you....

Joseph Preston said...

The staff at WLD Ranch are praying for you and your family.

Angie Monn said...

Ryan and Kendra,
The Rhodes Grove Camp Family is praying. Hold fast to Yahweh Rophe, asking him to reveal himself as "the Lord who heals us".
Jeremiah 17:14.
Thank you for your witness of his faithful servant!

Anonymous said...

On my knees!!!!! Praying without ceasing!!!

Anonymous said...

Susan Hancock

Penny said...

Our friends around the world are praying, as am I. Gregg is flying but I have also left him messages. We love you all.

Emily Bouw said...

I just saw this posted on a friends facebook page. I will be praying for you all!

Jen Spica said...

In Christ Alone....
Paul and Jen Spica with their girls praying for ultimate healing!

Anonymous said...

Praying in Illinois for you and your family!

Kevin said...

The Unity family is praying for all of you....we love you!!

Anonymous said...

Lifting you and your family up in prayer

Anonymous said...

Praying for you & your family!

Judy Guthrie, CCCA said...

You are in my prayer... His will be done... You are loved and may you know HIS mighty arms wrapped around you and your family...HE will give you courage, comfort, hope, peace and perseverance... "Trust in the Lord with all your heart..." Proverbs 3:5-6. Judy g, CCCA

Mary Sulek said...

I am praying for you all! God I hope it works!

Anonymous said...

Riemersma's from Holland, Mi...are praying.

amanda kay said...

Jehovah Rapha.
He is the God who heals.
Praying

Lori Ray said...

The Ray Family is praying for you and your family Ryan. Our love to all of you.

Anonymous said...

Praying! May you be filled with a peace only God can give as the everlasting Father who is in control
Of all and is wiping your tears, holding you, and is the God of miracles!

Shauna

Anonymous said...

Will be praying for you and that God's hand guides the hands and minds of all the doctors involved.

David and Amy Daugherty

Anonymous said...

Saw your blog posted on a friend's Facebook page. Praying for you, and that God does some incredible work for you!

Marisela Shellenbarger said...

Praying for you and your family ~


Jess said...

The Busschers, Havemans, Ruthsatz's and Holland Christian are praying for you guys!

I pray that Jesus will be Kendra's Prince of Peace at this moment...
I pray that Steve and Kathy will feels HIS arms of love and mercy wrapped around them at this moment...

I pray that Ryan will feel the strength of all God's angels at this moment...

We love you guys!

Anonymous said...

Praying...as you know, our God is bigger then all of this....

Anonymous said...

Ryan,
I am praying for all of you that you will know God's peace. You are an inspiration. My heart is breaking with you guys and I'm asking for healing, and for God's will to be done!
Love you all,
Sheryl Gasser

Anonymous said...

:)

Anonymous said...

Lifting you to the Divine so He may intercede for us on His Earth. :) blessings of healing, good sir!

-a friend

Anonymous said...

FAITH is the main ingredient that is needed if you have that you have it all, my prayers goes out to you and your loved ones i'll be praying that our father guide the Dr's hand to resolve the problem.May the lord keep you and your family safe through this difficult moment.

The Cruz Family

Anonymous said...

FAITH is the main ingredient that is needed if you have that you have it all, my prayers goes out to you and your loved ones i'll be praying that our father guide the Dr's hand to resolve the problem.May the lord keep you and your family safe through this difficult moment.

The Cruz Family

Anonymous said...

Will be praying for you and your family!! I also will be sharing this with others so that they too can pray!

Charity said...

I'm friends with Cindy Kamp and have been following your story. The Bean family is praying for you.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you, your family & the doctors. May God surround you all with his peace & love. Janine Dulac (old school friend of steves)

Anonymous said...

Just in the short amount of time we spent together & hearing you speak last week at the Fireside has had a huge impact on me. Even now, look at how all of us as believers in Christ, in unison, are coming together in prayer & support for you & your family. To God be the glory.
-Rick & Angie Capozzi

Anonymous said...

Ryan - praying harder than I have ever!!! My love & strength go out to you!
All of your family is in our prayers as well. <3 Juanita G

Anonymous said...

Our prayers are with you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Praying for your family Ryan. I will keep looking at the updates.

Anonymous said...

Praying and believing for you. God is mighty!

Anonymous said...


Praying for God's grace and healing for you and your family.
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6

Love and prayers for you!!

From Lafayette,Indiana

Anonymous said...

Minnesota family is praying! Grace and Peace! Strength for the family and doctors. Your faith is uplifting.

Melissa Young said...

Ryan and Kendra,
I just sent out a HUGE email with a copy of today's posting. I am praying hard for answers and healing for you.
I have you on our prayer chain at church and tomorrow at the Optimist Club in Ludington! Praying for God's healing and miracles!
Melissa Young

Cindy Race Pierson, Mi said...

Praying for you and your family. God is great and we just have to believe.

Anne Byl said...

You are in our prayers Ryan.

Anonymous said...

You and your family are in my prayers..

Cassy said...

Prayers from Alaska to our Master Physician for you and your precious family.

Anonymous said...

We are praying ~ the Haner 's (((hugs)))

lorraine mitteer said...

My prayers are with you and your family

Heidi said...

Praying via Stacy Vance! Through God anything is possible. ANYTHING. Despite that knowledge, your willingness to embrace God's will for the purpose of glorifying His holy name is such a testament of faith. My husband and I will be praying for you and your family; for hope, for God's peace which passes all understanding in this world crazed with fear.

kathy said...

Wheatland United Methodist Church and Desoto United Methodist Church and their Youth Groups are praying for you and your family. I knew your mom and dad from my internship at Eagle Village, your mom hired me. Two of the best people I know!
Kathy Wubbels Estrada

Anonymous said...

We are lifting you up before the Great Physician Ryan, and praying for your wife,son and the rest of your family too.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family from clarkston mi

moorejoy said...

We are praying for you and your family Ryan and praising God for your testimony and documentation of this journey you have allowed us to be on with you. Prayers are going out from our Olivet Evangelical Free Church (an update from the church and request for prayer went out earlier this afternoon)... I've posted on my Facebook. Your army is engaged with many prayer warriors... Joyce Moore

Anonymous said...

I'm not a very religious person but, your story is very moving. I have worked in healthcare for 20 years with various types of illness and disease...I've seen so many good people fight and win!! I will most definitely pray for you and keep you in my thoughts..Fight the fight with everything you have within you...stay positive as it truly does help along the way!
Kris, Zack and Josh
South Lyon Mi

Anonymous said...

I'm not a very religious person but, your story is very moving. I have worked in healthcare for 20 years with various types of illness and disease...I've seen so many good people fight and win!! I will most definitely pray for you and keep you in my thoughts..Fight the fight with everything you have within you...stay positive as it truly does help along the way!
Kris, Zack and Josh
South Lyon Mi

Ginger Mae said...

You are your family are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Praying the Blood of Jesus over you and your family!

The Hawkins Family

Anonymous said...

Praying for you & your family!

shawndeweerd said...

Praying, and sending some sun from San Diego.

Anonymous said...

Ryan, I am praying for you and your family. Nola Carew

Robin Tolbert said...

Praying with all my heart! Praying for God's peace and joy! Praying for your family to be upheld in His right hand! "Hemmed in behind and before..."

Anonymous said...

God bless you, the doctors, your family & friends during this difficult time in your young & precious life. So many people are praying for you, including people who don't know you but love you as a brother in Christ. Stay strong & know that you are loved! Our God is an AWESOME God!

Anonymous said...

May God bless you and your family through this difficult time! My prayers are being sent your way from Detroit, Michigan.

Anonymous said...

Veith family in Philly are praying!

Anonymous said...

Veith family in Philly are praying!

Anonymous said...

Veith family in Philly are praying!

Anonymous said...

Chad's cousin Matt here Ryan. Been praying for you and tonight over 100 Youth for Christ students and staff did too. We'll keep it up!

Amanda Z from Michigan said...

Praying for you, and for your family. God's blessings rain down upon you all.

Sara Bradt said...

Who you are brings God glory. Asking God tonight for peace for your heart and for favor. He is holding you up.

TomThwing said...

Your faith and life in Christ is worth more than gold, I pray for the peace and power of the presence of God to sustain you and flow through your body to bring healing and eternal life fro the one who is the resurrection and the life. To Him be glory and honor.

Anonymous said...

Many thoughts and prayers from Grand Ledge MI.

Anonymous said...

We are praying for you, Ryan, and your family. You are all dear friends.

Fred and Mary Jane

Anonymous said...

sending prayers on your behalf from Charlotte, NC
God bless you and your family!

Anonymous said...

Olivet E Free Church is praying for you and your family!

Anonymous said...

Ryan and Kendra,

We are praying. Bombarding the throne of Grace on your behalf.

Pine Cove

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Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family. God will never forsake you.

Anonymous said...

Praying a rosary asking the intercession of Our Lady of Lourdes.

Anonymous said...

I pray that your organs won't shut down.

Anonymous said...

It is now March 7. What is happening? God is always
with you, no matter what the news may be.

Anonymous said...

Still praying and hoping we will hear soon how things are going. Remember how much we love each of you....

Anonymous said...

May the peace and love of God our Father fill your hearts....praying for you with all of the love that is in our hearts.....

Anonymous said...

May your family and yourself find peace in whatever God has in store. Hopefully it will be to heal the bleeding and for you to get stronger and feel better. The Burton family is Praying for you. Live strong and keep looking to God for strength. Light and Prayers to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Ryan and Kendra,
I am calling on God on your behalf to heal your body. Stop the bleeding. Give you hope. Put His arms around you both, and your family, too. In Jesus our Savior's Name, Amen

Anonymous said...

We do not know you, but know the power of prayer and miracles can happen. Continue to use God as your rock and refuge. Prayers for all of you

Anonymous said...

Prayers for strength to face this journey. it bothers me that you say this is beyond God's abilities. We live in a sin filled world. We are all mortal, we will all die a fleshly death.....and have an eternal life with Him if.we have accepted Him into our hearts. We cannot question His was, but follow Him as He leads us, knowing and trusting His path. He will never leave us, we need to be in His Word day, and in His presence and in a continual spirit of prayer..yes, He willbe with you and that is all that matters. -a cancer survivor

Anonymous said...

For I am the Lord your God, Who takes hold of your right hand and says to you 'Do not fear, I will help you'. Isa 41:17